Yeah. It hasn't really happened has it?
But I have been living in a fog of frustration and disappointment and all around just-not-motivated-about anything lately. I hate these fogs. I don't have them very often but when I do they tend to hang on. Can't shake it.
I'm sitting in the living room looking around at the Christmas decorations that I LOVE to put up but hate taking down. Yes, I said hate. I am so overwhelmed by the 12 + crates that must be hauled in from various places (garage, attic, back room) and filled with festive Christmas things. Packed away for next year. Every year I reorganize and repack and adjust how I do everything. Every year I think that I'm being more efficient only to find that when I UNPACK next December I don't understand what the heck I was thinking the previous January (or in some cases February). So I sit here overwhelmed. And I feel that way in other places too. Frustration seems to permeate every part of my life. Work. Health. Hair.
Yes, I said hair. First, I have to say that I LOVE my hair diva, Rachel. This has nothing to do with her. It's dealing with the head of hair that God gave me. My hair that used to be thick and beautiful has thinned over the years. I can't wear it long because it starts to look thin, stringy and unhealthy. So Rachel cuts it in a way that makes me look like I have LOTS of hair. YAY! Now, I want a different color. I'm normally a light reddish brown kind of girl. But I want darker. So we tried MEDIUM reddish brown. Awesome. For like a week. Then Dark Auburn. Not dark enough. So yesterday we tried a Dark Soft Mahogany.
So basically, my hair is black. Yup. Ok, I'm exaggerating a LITTLE but it's DARK. Really DARK with some light spots sprinkled here and there. And I'm REALLY light. Look at the box - does that look dark to you?? NO. It looks reddish-brownish...right?? Deceived. So I'm taking like 3 showers a day (kidding) and trying to make it fade. Hence, my frustration. I know, it's vain. But I really don't care. U G H.
Of course I try very hard to look on the bright side and find the good in everything. I try. REALLY hard. I could be bald. I'm not - so there is a bright side. Ha.
So let me recap the last few months....hopefully rather quickly.
Pumpkin Cranberry White Chocolate Cookies
Visit to the vet (AGAIN)
Chocolate Fudge Cupcakes with Peppermint Buttercream
Pain...lots of PAIN
Presents (and football)
Blessings and love
That's about it. October was fun. November was warm. December was busy.
Now it's time to settle into the New Year. And blog...
Hugs & kisses....